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 Hello dearest friends! This is not my usual blog.... but a good friend has just asked about the back pain that I've had and I started to lay out my whole life story.... Then I started to feel a bit embarrass because it was getting too long.... So I thought, I might as well put it out in a blog.....
I had back problem since I was around 25. I was holding something heavy and I sneezed! As simple as that... something snap in my back & I collapsed. After some painkillers I was okay and thought nothing of it. Over the years I experienced the same attacks, and everytime it gets more painful and the time to recover gets longer and longer. At the same time I had many miscarriages. 5 altogether. I believe they're related, it's just I never know whether it was the back problem that causing the miscarriages, or the miscarriages causing the back pain to get worst....
When I was carrying my third and youngest daughter in 2001, which was my ninth pregnancy, I could hardly walk by the seventh month because my back was not strong enough to hold the weight. Then when she was a few months old, I had the worst attack. The pain was really excruciating that I was like paralyzed, unable to move a muscle without pain souring through out my whole body.... That was when my nightmare started. It took me almost two years just recuperating and there was no life without a painkiller..... The doctors can't really pin point what was the cause. After numerous x-rays & MRIs, they found a tumor in one of the spine bone, T12, if I'm not mistaken.... So they said I have 'haemagioma' and wanted to dig the tumor out and fill the hole in the bone with cement. Sounds like dentist filling the teeth to me... However when I pressed them for assurance, they don't dare to and offer me an alternative to do radiotherapy instead. And you know what, after 20 treatments and I had to suffer the same side effects of chemo, they said the tumor has shrink a bit but since my level of pain did not reduce, they concluded the tumor is not the cause....
So after more MRIs and they found a slight tear at S1 (I think... can't really remember already....) and they decided the tear is so small it's not worth putting me through surgery. So they decided to wait & see, if I get worse, only then will they perform the surgery..... If you ask me, I'd say they just don't know what else to do because they're not really sure what was wrong with me.... So after that I was left with no choice but to live my life as how a 60 years old woman would.... Believe me, it's no fun at all for my young children.... who has to learn to do most of the things by themselves.... and that really breaks my heart......
Not only did I had to live with painkillers, I had to bear the side effects too. My stomach ulcer got so bad I can't even enjoy food like other people.... Then I started taking botanical juice made from noni and Chinese fungus Ling Zhi (or scientifically known as Morinda citrifolia and Ganoderma Lucidium). That cured the stomach ulcer but not the back pain. But I was pleased enough because I was able to enjoy food again....
Then later I started to take Calcium and Vitamin B Complex pills. Then there was this time when my husband was always working late so he didn't have the time to buy my pills for about a month. That was when I had my last back pain attack again. That made me realized I haven't been taking any painkillers while I was taking the vitamins.... Luckily this time I was not hospitalized.... If not I'm sure the doctors would not hesitate to operate on my spine.... But still.... I had to go through the slow period of recuperating again....
So I continued taking the vitamins... I no longer need to take any painkillers but the pain was still there, sort of a reminder for me not to overdo it.... So I still have to take it easy and have to take a lot of rest after any activity.... I'll tell you again, with young children, that is no fun at all....
Now when you're living an inactive life (I mean not enough exercises....) other illnesses started to creep in... As you all know, I started to have frequent migraine..... Then drowsiness really set off the alarm..... The rest of the story, as you know it in my passed blogs.... (Click Here & Here) LOL!!
And Click Here..... With XanGo Mangosteen Juice I'm living my life to the fullest! I'm getting healthier & healthier, I feel more and more energized! It makes me feel so happy, I want to share it with everybody I know and anybody I met!
Opps! I'm babbling too much now.... Heehee! Didn't mean to make an advertisement here.... But honestly, that is how I feel right now....
Take good care my friends!
Have a Wonderful Weekend!
Hello dearest friends!! So sorry I stayed away so long.... Thank you so much for all your concerns.... I hope all of you are well and fine while I'm gone...
Just dropping in to let you know we are all well and fine. Today we're adjusting slowly to the normal routine as the girls has started schooling....
As for me... I've been on an online course for a week now.... I guess I'm so full with energy right now I kept looking for something else to do..... (as if I don't have enough in my hand yet! Heehee!!) I'll let you know the details once everything is settled!
Take Care & Have A Great Week!
Big Hugs From Me!
Hello my dearest friends!! Hope you had a wonderful Mother's Day weekend! I miss all of you here very much!!
 This is my favourite fruit, mangosteen!! I know they have this fruit in Down Under, but I don’t know whether the others have seen it because it is found mostly in South East Asia. The taste is delicious!! It’s sweet and creamy, citrusy with some peach flavour. I really love the taste of mangosteen and only recently did I learn that there is more to mangosteen than just the great taste!!  Even though there’s a ‘mango’ word there, mangosteens are unrelated to mangos. To enjoy it, instead of peeling it like an orange, a mangosteen is typically opened by pressing firmly or twisting the outside until it breaks apart.
The hard rind can be nearly one inch thick. At the center is the soft opaque white fruit, which resembles a head of garlic but tastes slightly sweet and tart. What I’ve just discovered is that in Southeast Asia, the rind—or pericarp—has been used for medicinal purposes for generations. According to folklore, the rind was used to make a tea for conditions such as diarrhea, bladder infections, and gonorrhea. An ointment made from the rind was applied to skin rashes.
Today, the rind has been found to contain the compounds alpha-mangostin, beta-mangostin, garcinone B, and garcinone E, which are collectively called xanthones.
Laboratory studies suggest xanthones have anti-cancer effects. Mangosteen has also been found to have anti-inflammatory, antimicrobial, antifungal, and antiseptic properties. Mangosteen or scientifically known as Garcinia mangostana, was virtually unknown in North America until a Utah-based network marketing start-up introduced a mangosteen drink called XanGo in late 2002.
Since then, XanGo marketers have produced a craze around the beverage in US. The company is considered one of the fastest growing network marketing companies. XanGo is sold around the world through a network of independent distributors. Now this bring to the business that I’m involved in right now. XanGo was first introduced to me by our common online friend, Jackie Spence-Henricks from Canada, aka ‘willowhaven’ here in Multiply, quite some time ago. Some of you from Yahoo 360 would have known her. From what she’s written and from what I found, I know it’s a great product but somehow…. I did not feel any urgent need for it at that time…. Most of you are aware that I’ve just been diagnosed with high cholesterol & hypertension recently. And actually, there’s one more that I’ve kept from you gals, is gout. Sorry friends… I just feel I’ve worried you enough… I just didn’t want to lay it all at once… heehee! Please don’t get angry with me now…
I've been taking XanGo mangosteen juice for almost a month now and I can really feel my health improving. On the fourth day that I took it, I no longer dozed off during the day! After two weeks, I lost 2kgs!! After three weeks, the rashes that have been a long time problem on my hand are no longer itchy and almost gone. And I also noticed I no longer suffer from the heel pain I had everytime I walk too.
My children are still young… there’s still a long way to go… I can’t afford to fall sick at this time. They still need me. I know I will feel horrible if they have to take care of me instead…. I've been there.... This is what drives me to first, take good care of myself. So that I would be able to fulfill my second, i.e. take care of my children and beloved husband….. Then my other family members…. Then my precious friends, both in real world and online…. I know.... I know, it’s a big dream... but then again, it’s not impossible….. It’s funny how life works… who would have thought that from being connected just as online friends, we could get connected in so much more…. I wish one day I will be connected to all of you more than just online, like what is happening to Jackie and me…. We’re now active business partners and we communicate with each other almost everyday and I’ve even been to Jackie’s house in Canada!! But online….. for the moment…. Heehee!! But I know, with diligence hard work, I will be there in person one day, Jackie… And soon too I will have both you and Bob here in my home…. Pray for me, my friends… If any of you are interested to know more about the product, just let me know, or you can always check out my website RuzihaOsman.MyMangosteen.com
or www.myxango.com.my/ruzihaosman/
Take Care & Have A Great Week Ahead!! Ta Ta For Now!
| You Belong in 1976 |  Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all! |
Hello dearest friends! Hope everyone is having a great day! Yessss, I'm guilty! Bad, bad me! I've been neglecting my friends....
I've just got someone wonderful as my business partner! So these past few days I've been busy trying to do the ground work to build up our business and these first few months will be very crucial for us! Please pray for me!
And you know me... I already have fix schedules with the girls, thus on top of this, my time is fully filled up!
Thank you so much for your concern, my dearest friends! I'm feeling much better now and my sleepiness is not as bad as it used to be. Now I just have to take a daily afternoon nap. Heehee! Now I understand why people take daily nap!! I forgot, eventhough my mind is still as young as can be, my body still grows old!! 
I will try to take a peep on everyone, every now and then! But please forgive me if I don't leave any comment... I may be absent here, but you are not absent in my heart! Who knows, with your blessings, I might be on your front door steps one day......
So, till next time, please don't forget me.... Love you all!!!
Take Good Care & Have a Great Life!
Ta Ta For Now!!
Howdy! Howdy! Howdy!! Hope everybody's having a great weekend... well, what's left of it for some of us... Heehee!! Sorry, I'm a case of touch and go here! Still rushing with all sorts of things... and in between managed to sneak online! Heehee!!
Have a great weekend & will see you soon enough!! Big Hugs!!
| You Were a Skunk |  You carry yourself with sensuality and a flowing energy.
You have a great reputation, and you follow your own (good) advice. |
Hello dear friends!! Hope everyone is having a wonderful Thursday! The theme for Picture Perfect this week is FRAGILE!!
So as usual, straight I go & dig my piles of pictures .... Hmm... what does FRAGILE means to me? Fragile glass? Fragile porcelain? Fragile flowers? Suddenly I saw the picture of my late father.... I was dumbfounded!
LIFE IS FRAGILE....
© Photo: Ruzie. All rights reserved.
(Taken handheld with my Olympus Camedia FE-5500)
Naaahh!! My dear late father was not here... Sorry, but if I were to share him here... I won't be able to finish this posting!! 
Sharing here is a picture of a Brahminy Kite eagle whose natural habitat is in Asia. Taken at Sunway Wild Life Interactive Zoo in September 2007.
It's very frightening when I think of the possibilities that the future generations might not be able to see this beautiful creature nor the beautiful lush of green with all the pollution and destruction threatening them....
Very often we take life for granted... Only when it's lost, only when it's too late, do we realized how FRAGILE life is... Be it the people we care for, be it the almost extinct animals and be it the wondrous nature......
LIFE IS SO FRAGILE....
Take care & Have a great day!! Ta Ta For Now! 
Hello dearest friends! Happy Chicken Tuesday!!! But then again, I'm not chicken enough today.... So sorry!!
Finally got my blood test result this morning!!! Aaah... I'm so relieveeeeed!! No thyroid. No diabetes. However, it is confirmed, the cause of my lethargy is due to high cholesterol and hypertension. Thus the doctor puts me on medication for the high cholesterol. However, for the hypertension we agreed for me to try and change my diet first and see if there is any good result before I start taking medicine to treat it too.
So that's that! I'm so glad it can be treated just by changing my diet!! Bad, bad, glorious, yummy food!! I just knew my habit of taking snacks will land me in troubles sooner or later.  Now that the anxiety of waiting for the result is over, I feel so exhausted and can hardly open my eyes.... So sorry if I don't get to visit anybody today! I truly appreciate all of my friends concern over my health, eventhough it's not that serious really.... See you when I can!! And before I sign off, Happy Birthday to my dear friend Amalie!! And 14th was my dear beloved MacGyver's birthday!!
Take Care &
Have a Wonderful Tuesday!!
Ta Ta For Now!!!
1. list 10 things or habits about myself2. post the rules of being tagged3. choose 5 people and post their names4. and tag those people
10 Things About Me....
1. Eldest Child
- Yes, I'm the eldest of six siblings of 1 boy and five girls.
2. Profession background
- I'm from the accounting background. I was in Finance for more than ten years before I got fed up with desk work and decided to try on Marketing. Later, due to my experience I ended up taking charge of both department!! I left my career after I had my youngest.
3. My true dream
- I wanted to be in hotel management. But my dear late father, being the conservative person that he was, 'hotel' and 'girl' was a big NO!!! Since I was good in Math, so accounting it is!!
4. I'm a Formula 1 and MotoGP fan!!5. I'm supposed to have 9 children!
- Yeap, 9, instead of only my present three girls! My youngest was my ninth pregnancy! Yes, I had five miscarriages and one ectopic....
6. I can't ride a bike!!
- Again, my dear late father forbid us riding bicycles! While my other siblings managed to sneak riding friends' bike, I was stuck at boarding school with no bike to try!! Then when I got a boyfriend i.e. my hubby-to-be, who rides big motorbike, I was happy to just be his pillion rider the rest of my life.....
7. I'm still a kid at heart!
- I love things Peter Rabbit, especially Mother Goose, Hello Kitty, Little Twin Star, Strawberry Shortcake, Forever Friends and Precious Moments!! And I still watch cartoons with my girls.... 8. I'm a morning person!
9. I just love all beautiful things.... too many for me to name.
10. Last but not least, my family is my life....
Now.... who do I tag? Any volunteer.....? Anyone...? Yoohoo!!!
Take Care & Have A Great Hump Day!!
Ta Ta For Now!!
Howdy! Howdy! Howdy!! Did anybody miss me....?Woke up yesterday morning, I was missing my grandbaby Diyanah so much, we simply packed & off we went to see her!!! But, of course, without dear GhamPa because he's working, as usual.... Had a great time with her, my Blossom and my Mum yesterday! Baby Diyanah is going to be 10 months next weekend!! 
But alas, we had to come back..... Can't wait for our next visit! Sigh... Geez! How I wish I can do the same with my friends here.... Poof! And I'm there!! Well, maybe one day...... | You Are 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained |  The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.
The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports. |
Hello dearest friends! Hope everyone had a wonderful Thursday!! Yeap, it’s time for Picture Perfect… and the theme this week is HOBBY!!  Now, here comes the routine…..
~ The theme! Yeap, I know the meaning of HOBBY pretty well, so skip trying to understand the meaning of the word! But being a Gemini, I have lots of hobbies!!  ~ Dig for a picture! As the norm for me, I prefer to dig through my old pictures for each theme instead of making new ones. So dig, dig, dig! Look, look, look! Uh? I don’t have any HOBBY picture!! So can’t participate this week!! (Well, this is what I always say to myself each week! ) ~ So, second round of dig, dig, dig and look, look, look! ~ Heyyy!! I was already looking at my HOBBY!! Building fond memories with my girls; Doing as many things together and going to as many places together!! My wish and my reasons being when I’m no longer around, I want my children to be able to say; Heyyy, I’ve done this, and I’ve done that, with my Mum when she was around….. I’ve been here, and I’ve been there with my Mum, when she was around….
Most of my pictures are about capturing every fun moment that I had with my two girls, Buttercup and Bubbles. My Blossom, the oldest, is already away at boarding school by the time I got my digital camera. Thus my memories with her are mostly in pictures from the film camera. And just in case anybody’s wondering where the father is….. He’s busy working somewhere trying to make sure that his wife and children are able to build those fond memories!! They don’t come free, ya’ know!! 
© Photo: Ruzie. All rights reserved.
(Taken handheld with my Olympus Camedia FE-5500)
Sharing here is one of my girls’ moment of joy! Watching, touching and grabbing The Baby Looney Tunes!!! So, there goes another glimpse of the joy of my life....
Hope you like my HOBBY!!
Thank you very much to Mr. JohnOh for hosting this week & for the great theme!
To join the Picture Perfect fun, click here!
Take care & Hope you have a great & joyous Friday!! Ta Ta For Now!
Hello dearest friends! Hope everyone is having a wonderful day!! Yeap, it’s time for Picture Perfect… and the theme this week is HOBBY!! Now, here comes the routine… The theme! Yeap, I know the meaning of HOBBY pretty well, so skip trying to understand the meaning of the word! Dig for a picture! As the norm for me, I prefer to dig through my old pictures for each theme instead of making new ones. So dig, dig, dig! Look, look, look! Uh? I don’t have any HOBBY picture!! So can’t participate this week!! (Well, this is what I always say to myself every week!) So, second round of dig, dig, dig and look, look, look! Heyyy!! I was already looking at my HOBBY!! Building fond memories with my girls, doing as many things together and going to as many places together!! My wish and my reasons being when I’m no longer around, I want my children to be able to say; Heyyy, I’ve done this, and I’ve done that, with my Mum when she was around…. And I’ve been here, and I’ve been there with my Mum, when she was around…. Most of my pictures are about capturing every fun moment that I had with my two girls, Buttercup and Bubbles. My Blossom, the oldest, is already away at boarding school by the time I got my digital camera. Thus my memories with her are mostly in pictures from the film camera. And just in case anybody’s wondering where is the father… He’s busy working somewhere trying to make sure that his wife and children are able to build those fond memories!! They don’t come free, ya’ know!!
Sharing here is one of my girls’ moment of joy! Watching, touching and grabbing The Baby Looney Tunes!!! So, there goes another glimpse of the joy of my life....
Take care & Hope you have a great & joyous day!! It’s past midnight here, so it's Friday!!! Ta Ta For Now!
LinkHello dearest friends! Hope you have a wonderful Thurday!! Most of you would know I rarely write a sad blog. It's simply because I don't like to dwell on sadness to much. But then again, I know it's something you can't avoid in life. But I truly hate it when it's something that can be avoided entirely. Something which shouldn't exist at all!! There is enough sadness in life already as it is.
Oh, dear! Before I start babbling non-stop, please just check out this link to my friend, Kia's blog, that I would like to share and tell me if you understand how I feel about it.... I have signed. Sigh...
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