Hello dear friends! How have all of you been behaving while I'm gone? Hmm... I'll see from your blogs in a short while...! LOL!
But for the meantime, I hope you'll lend me your ears & hear this rambling of a broken hearted grandmother....
I came home yesterday afternoon, with my two beloved girls, heartbroken.... So I didn't really have the heart to blog... I don't really like to face anybody when I'm in this kind of mood.... But this morning, I was thinking maybe it's better if I let this out of my chest, whether anybody reading or not.... I need to pour this out......
We have finally returned baby Diyanah to her parents.... Sob! Sob! Sob! My Blossom has found a good babysitter for her baby. Well, I really do pray that she's a good babysitter! After more than a month with baby Diyanah, I thought I'd be totally relieved to finally return her.... No matter how hard I tried, no matter how strict I'd like to be with my decision to return her.... it is actually totally heartbreaking & my tears just can't stop flowing while posting this... I've put up a brave face the whole journey there & back. Trying to be the hard hearted Mum, trying to be stern with her children. Trying to be the strong pillar to my Buttercup when she has thousand of worries & sad about having to leave her little niece. Trying to be the stern one to my better half who can't believe that I could simply leave our little granddaughter to her so young parents whose lives are still so disorganized! I keep telling them it'll be alright, and that my Blossom would surely know how to handle her own daughter! After all, she's her own daughter.... What they don't know is that at the same time I'm trying to convince myself too!! I know my daughter has lots of faults but one thing I know for sure is that she loves her baby very much & I'm sure she would not let any harm comes to her baby intentionally.....
It was really difficult when we arrived there. Baby Diyanah does not recognize her parents anymore, what more to say her home. She just screamed when they hold her. She screamed when they tried to bathe & feed her. She cried & cried looking pitifully at either my Buttercup & me to take her away.... So it took her the whole two days to get use to them & it was really hard for both my Buttercup & me to watch the whole time how they're coping, trying hard not to just snatch the baby away & take off!!!
It was with heavy heart when we finally left yesterday but I knew I made the right decision when I see baby Diyanah snuggled calmly in her mother's arms when we left. It just looks right seeing her with her parents. And I know it's the right thing to do for my Blossom as well....
Sharing here a photo of baby Diyanah just before we left for Seremban....
So, there goes another piece of my life….
Thank you for reading! Hope you have a wonderful Tuesday!
Ta Ta For Now!
